The Major Initiations in Sequence

During the Awakening the soul finds the world's attractions hold no satisfaction and one cannot receive satisfaction through worldly pursuits. Somewhere inside the pursuit of satisfying desire through pursuit of worldly things is exhausted and one knows the pursuit of worldly things leads one nowhere. Mary, the Mother of Jesus, when she received the message from the angel Gabriel represents an aspect of the Calling, also called the Awakening. She received through Divine Inspiration, the Holy Spirit. One knows and receives through a spiritual experience of knowing that there is more and one becomes a seeker for that which is real and lasting and one opens to receive the Christ.

This knowing, however, is stimulated by a calling - an inspiration... by The Holy Spirit ... because we turn inward and begin to question... The Holy Spirit is constantly active and unfolding greater awareness to us in the very degree we are able to receive. The Holy Spirit causes a conscious awakening within us because we turn inward for answers that are not available to us in through the outer world. There is an awakening... an intuitive feeling... even a physical sensation, a stirring inside... a feeling of new life such as a pregnant woman might feel as a new baby begins to stir inside - a flutter - one must find something, but we do not know what – as one reaches for that which is real, one begins a personal journey... one leaves all that is familiar and steps out alone leaving all behind to find the unknown .... not knowing what IT is, but only that one must follow this stirring... inside.... and find the answer.... to that which is being awakened inside.

Illumination: At some point the intensity of focus as one reaches for that which one must find initiates an experience of Light and Love so profound that there is a resultant Life Changing experience of how one perceives oneself, Life, God, and Creation.

There is a great A Hah! All is Love and Light; All is God and there is an understanding that - that this experience of God is what the Great Masters have been trying to teach us. The Light and Love consume us, cover us, permeate us. Following, the world and one's life and existence are seen in a different Light, a new Light, a real Light, a Truer Light; one encounters and experiences the True Presence of God and there are few to whom one can speak about the experience. All is Light and Love and a romantic period follows. One is in Love with God and seeks to tell others and find others who have had the experience of the Real God... the unconditional Love that exists... Timeless and Eternal... Substantial... Soul Satisfying... Joyful... Glorious... Wonderful...

The next experience is sometimes called the Dark Night of the Soul or Dweller the on the Threshold and some stage of this seems to occur after every initiation. Our worldly consciousness must adjust to what we have experienced of is Truly God. Our perceptions have changed and as we measure the difference old concepts fall away. There is a grief period for what one though is true is seen as not true and one realizes that friends and family are walking in a relative darkness about who they truly are- about who we truly are.

Sometimes, many times, friends and family cannot understand the profound change in the person. Relationships to others one was close to sometimes fall apart or become strained. The mind adapts to a new context and realization and one experiences sorrow over the state of the world and oneself. The seeker sometimes tries to share with others what one has realized, but is unsuccessful. Sometimes, most usually, the seeker commits to sharing or making a contribution in some way to the world. Sometimes at this point in time, a person takes vows formally or on their own personally to God to bring this Light and Awareness; this knowing and understanding to all. Then one realizes that one really knows very little and again one renounces it all and the seeker continues the journey.

The experience of Self-realization takes place when the seeker reaches even high to God for the answers to who am I and why am I here and why is the world the way it is? The Soul seeks in earnest to know of its source and the reason for existence. As the seeker reaches higher, the seeker has an experience that one has the Light and Love one has realized, within one's own self.

The earnest Soul eventually comes to know that he or she is a child of God and Eternal. Usually there is a visual experience and sometimes not, but there is a profound realization that the one's being and God are truly One and always have been.

The seeker comes to know that the inner being is composed of the Soul and the Self and the Soul is one with God; the Soul is realized as eternal; the presence of God and communication with God becomes accessible at will and the Soul knows God is both within and without. The Soul begins walk in the Presence of God and comes to know God personally. The Soul lives and and integrates a sense of timelessness; the Soul realizes its own Eternal Life.

Following this experience the mind or the Dweller on the Threshold and or Dark Night appear again: The mind adapts to another new context and realization on this new deeper level and experiences another level of sorrow over the state of the world and for oneself as the separation from God is seen as preventable if one only all would seek God. The seeker perceives - All is God and All the seeker sees is God. The seeker feels alone and recognizes that what is needed is that he or she must give up all concepts, perceptions and personal desires in order to be with God always. There is a grieving period over one's transgressions and the sorry state of the world - at the same time one comes to know of the absolute forgiveness and unconditional Love of God on another level. The seeker seeks the answer as to how to cross the chasm between what one knows to be true and the actualization of what one knows to be true.

The seeker comes face to face with the Soul and Self and gains some knowledge as to how the Soul has come to be in this state of separation. The seeker gains some knowledge that it is through total union with the Divine that all may be achieved and so gives up all and renounces all. The seeker understands that the world is in the state it is in because of its past separation from God.

The seeker learns that we live move and have our being in God. We come to understand that we have no personal power, rather personal power is an illusion. We have free will, but free will is really about the choice to live in companionship with God or to live alone. When we live in companionship with the God within we do that which brings joy and Love into the world and we become true creators or should I say expressions of God in the world, for God is Love and Light and the expression of both in the world is Life. One becomes a renunciate more fully, but in the renunciation, the seeker becomes one with God.

God - realization: As the renunciate reaches for total union -- all of a sudden one realizes All is God -- All is Light. None of the soul's sins really matter in the long run. All is forgiven always. One is alive and alive forever- there is no time. There is only Being and Becoming and Eternal Joining with the One Light. The I am is Light. The I AM is Light. The Soul is Light. There is no separateness and yet there is identity -- then no identity. Then there is only Being and Knowing who one really is and what, who God Is for the consciousness of the Soul merges with God. The God within becomes the constant companion of the Soul. There are two and then one. This is the mystery of the Bridal Chamber. The two become one and are always together.

God is within and without; one is God; is one with God. One begins to live what one knows, knowing that if one does live in communion with God, one will remain in the awareness of oneness and in the Presence of God. The Presence is always present. One unites consciously with the Divine Being within. Seeking ceases - what was sought has been found ... and yet there is always more.... more Life, more Love... more of the Presence of God... Endless Light and Love and Eternal Life. Then one really begins to Live and one is really Alive and one Knows that there is really nothing to Know and there is nothing to Know. There is only Being.... and Love and Flowers and the birds and the creation and Our children and Our family and Our friends and the Ocean and the Stars and...Being Love.