Developing Contact With Your Self


This spiritual practice, Developing Contact with the Your Self, assists in developing one's relationship with the Inner Divine Being. If you have mastered the Auric Egg of Light Practice, going to the Source of the Light is the next step. The following exercise is a natural extension of the Auric Egg of Light Practice.

Do not forget that while meditation serves us in becoming more peaceful and better people, the ultimate goal of our spiritual practices is to encounter our Inner Being and then to realize our oneness with that Source; the actual Source of Our Existence. If you have been experiencing Light in meditation, on a regular basis, you might find that the desire to go to Source of this Light is becoming a natural inclination.

To begin, you can merely sit, feeling or seeing the Being within, which is a very wonderful state to be in; but the conclusive step is developing the ability to hear and know the True Inner Voice, the Voice of God inside you.

Now, many schools speak of an outer self and an Inner Self. Know that this perception of duality is incidental and that over time this perception eventually becomes obsolete as one progresses spiritually.

The so-called outer self, also called the small ego, presents to us perceptually a condition of duality, because with regular practice we begin to encounter an Observer, an overriding larger consciousness, in distinction to what I will call, the ordinary usual consciousness of the outer self.

The outer self consists of our human individuality and personality, but really only pertains to the conscious awareness of this particular life experience; these experiences pertain to the years between our immediately known earthly birth and death and to what we think and feel about it.

As we live the results of the activity of this outer mind are absorbed by what we will call the Soul surrounding the True Inner Self, but the outer mind has only limited access to the greater mind of the Soul. The outer mind is not self-directive nor self-reflective; only the Soul reflects and chooses, and only the Soul mind integrates experience, whether we consciously recognize it or not. Think about it! Is it your mind that chooses or something else?

The True Inner Self actually transcends the outer self, but not exclusively; rather, the True Inner Self is inclusive. The True Inner Self exists as a spiritual level of even greater awareness than we experience ordinarily, you might say; it has an Awareness that we are Eternal, a sense of Beingness and a knowing that what effects One effects All; it is timeless. When we are in a state of Beingness there is no time.

The True Inner Self is inclusive of the outer self, but it transcends the outer self and the personal desires of the small ego; the small ego thinks only in terms one life. The True Inner Self considers beingness and the needs of not only itself but also the needs of ALL because it is innately and inexplicably connected to the ALL and Everything, therefore, what we receive from this True Inner Self is both good for the One and for the Ultimate Good of ALL because it does not wish to harm; the True Inner Self recognizes All is One. The True Self's ultimate consideration is to do what is Good for All and the truth of its manifestation is Divine Love, Wisdom and Compassion. The ultimate purposes of our spiritual practices is to realize and engage with and Be Our True Self.

Through spiritual practice the lesser outer self eventually vanishes, as at some point, and the sense of duality or separation dissolves, as the True Self, sometimes called the Observer, transcendently emerges. Sometimes the emergence is gradual, sometimes the emergence is sudden; nevertheless, as this emergence takes place we are reborn into Greater Light and Awareness.

Eventually, the Soul assumes, in reference to the outer self, the Transcendent position as a the Soul becomes completely and consciously aware. When fully Conscious, the Soul naturally and simultaneously realizes its oneness with God. The Soul is the Observer.

The Observer, the One who observes your mind, your thoughts, your actions, your activities, is your True Identity; it is nameless and has no gender, no specific identity that can be pinpointed; it is ever changing. Yet, each of us may be distinguished one from another; the distinguishments are like the colors of a rainbow; the rainbow is of one substance, yet varied in color and hue.

The distinguishments, our Souls are differentiated aspects of God. The Ancient texts refer to both God and the Soul as El; the word used for God in Genesis is "Elohim," the plural form of the word "El."

Genesis 1:1 In the beginning God [the Elohim] created the heaven and the earth.... 26 And God said, Let us make man in our image, after our likeness

Genesis 2: 7 And the LORD God formed man of the dust of the ground, and breathed into his nostrils the breath of life; and man became a living soul.

Who are they and who is us?

Genesis 11:1 And the whole earth was of one language, and of one speech.... 4 And they said, Go to, let us build us a city and a tower, whose top may reach unto heaven; and let us make us a name, lest we be scattered abroad upon the face of the whole earth.... 6 And the LORD said, Behold, the people is one, and they have all one language; and this they begin to do: and now nothing will be restrained from them, which they have imagined to do. 7 Go to, let us go down, and there confound their language, that they may not understand one another's speech

Again who is they who is us?

The Soul is Pure Consciousness. In terms of the Trinity, the Soul is the Logos aspect of you; it is that which was emanated or was created in the beginning, you might say, although in truth we cannot say when the Soul was conceived for it is Eternal and without beginning or end. The references in Genesis and the Bible are allegorical and metaphorical; the ancient stories actually refer to deeper spiritual experiences.

When you shift from the outer mind to consciously adopting the perspective of the Observer: The Soul, your awareness shifts and becomes Soul Awareness. At this point, after a time when the shift becomes permanent, one realizes oneness with God.

First there is duality, then there is no duality, then there is duality, then there is no duality.... eventually... there is no duality. The Spirit of the Soul is its Essence: Love, Wisdom and Compassion and eventually all is perceived of as an ever unfolding life. This is a Gnostic mystical experience of God-realization; it can only be intuitively grasped in its fullness.

In summary, if you do not yet know it, your Soul is greater than what is called the outer self. The outer self has only limited consciousness that pertains to this life time. The Soul, the True Self and Soul are Eternal; the Soul is the second aspect of our Triune makeup. Our individual Triune makeup is a microcosmic pattern of the Trinity of God: the Macrocosm.

We say that the outer self and the Inner Self become unified, but then later, we come to realize the Greater Truth, that there is only ONE GREAT SELF and the many souls are merely aspects of the expression of that One Light. This is not an intellectual understanding; rather it is a spiritual experience; an intuitive, spontaneous realization that results in the knowing that The One Self of God is the same Self in all of us.

What differentiates us one from another are our Souls; we are created in God's image. The God Trinity is three fold: The God-head, the Logos, the Spirit; and so it is with the each of us. We are a reflection of the God Head, Logos or Soul, and Spirit.

There is nothing but SELF, for SELF is all there is. Self-realization is realizing who you are. God-realization is realizing that all is God. When we become one with God and know we are one with God, the idea of separation dissolves.

The Exercise:

In this process, sit in silence and relax your body and your mind, while enveloped in the Auric Egg of Light. Proceed with a technique of slow, deep breathing, compatible with the rate of your heart and let all thoughts clear away, until the the calmness exists that gives you inner peace.

Observe the Light at your center, and keep steadily focused upon it, while you relax; allow your consciousness to go into it. If you find yourself tensing up, or if your thinking distracts you, take slow deep breaths and relax again into the Light, and into its silence and the peace within. Sit until you feel your heart and breath become one, until they have a common rhythm.

Know you are tuning into a deeper consciousness within, the genuine feeling of the Presence of your True Being. This consciousness is the Real You, not a separate Higher Self. The so-called false or outer self is slowly transforming and dissolving away as you grow spiritually, making way for the Divine Beingness you are, to become more present, and even fully emergent.

In this deep, meditative state, when you start sensing this Inner Consciousness, the next thing you must do is to direct a question to it. One question might be, "Who am I?" or "What is the source of this Light, this presence?"

Here you must learn to ignore the ideas and thoughts of the outer mind, disregarding the outer self and its advice as if it didn't exist, accepting that it is the small self; knowing that it is the small self because you can observe it.

Know that this outer self or mind has served its purpose in guarding and protecting you on your spiritual journey; know this and thank it and then put it to one side for a while.

Now go deeper, and keep looking at the Light inside; look for the brightest part of the Light; the Source of the Light; then look into the Source of the Light; move in consciousness into the Source of the Light knowing that the Source of this Light is the Life and Light of Your True Being.

Notice how the lower mental level becomes quiet as you become more and more, the one who observes; notice that your small mind feels safe as you go into the Great Peace and Light of God; notice how the one who observes enters into peace as the mind becomes quiet and that the quietness allows you to you go ever more deeply into the Light.

When you are as deep as you can go, adopt a waiting receptive mode; continue to observe and watch and listen in a receptive mode. Allow the meditation to draw to a natural conclusion.

At the conclusion of your meditation, record what you received, saw, heard or perceived in your journal immediately, because as you emerge from this deep level, you may forget as you go about your daily life, very important parts of what you have experienced.

Also write down any questions you may have so that you may meditate on those questions next time and or contemplate them between meditations.


Incidentally, you may receive many good answers from the outer mind that may be similar to those you obtain from the True Source. This is because the outer mind is actually a collection of experiences of this life and in some cases past experiences lodged in the subconscious have unbeknown to us on a conscious level have emerged into our awareness to help us when needed.

Know that put in the right place, the small mind is useful, for it has collected information concerning this life experience; if it were always wrong in its conclusions, we would learn very soon to have little confidence in our ability to think and analyze properly; our ordinary mind, is right in just enough cases to make us have total faith in it.

We may realize, however, when we go beyond the normal range of awareness, composed of our current lifetime experiences and gained knowledge, that such conclusions are really only superficial or partial renditions in light of what we may receive through the proper application of this exercise.

Therefore, in this meditative process, or any other, the outer mind must learn to keep silent and be receptive only to the True Source.

Listening for the Inner Voice takes practice. The Soul mind has access to not only this life experience, but also has access to other life or Soul experiences. This is why we must concentrate and keep focused upon the Light within.

You must also be sure you pose your questions correctly, without any misleading or selfish inclinations, for an incorrectly asked question will not give you the answer you are really looking for.

For instance, questions requiring a "yes" or "no" answer are not the wisest approach. Instead of asking, "Is this the right thing for me to do in this situation?" you should ask, "What is the right thing that I must do in this situation?" Then you may get exactly what you must do.

This process if practiced regularly, over time will become automatic and will become like breathing. In going into Being in this way, and listening to the Voice Within, receiving various impressions and revelations, or seeing deeper realities of Being, you are learning to live from the point of the God Source, and no longer from the outer mind, or outer inclinations of the outer self. You may soon learn that there is in reality no outer or inner, but that Beingness is everywhere.

You will know you are doing this spiritual practice correctly when at the end of the concentration period you notice that you lost all sense of your surroundings, that you were totally in a different realm, or state of being.

As you learn to discern the inner voice from the outer mind, you will soon learn that there is a very definite feeling of genuine revelation and you will come to know intimately the Higher Intelligence that comes from within.

You may do this inner concentration practice from fifteen to twenty minutes, or longer, once or twice each day, until you learn to master it. You may even find yourself naturally and automatically functioning and living from the Divine Source from the first practice on.

Also See: The Auric Egg Exercise

This meditation has been adapted from the Developing Contact with the Self Exercise
of The Holy Order of MANS circa 1972.

Copyrights are asserted for The Gnostic Order of Christ, 2007 infinitum.